Sauced - logging in here @ 11:57 p.m. today - post 1

Drank too much last night.  My first drink in about 4 or 5 weeks - and Ive lost about 15 pounds, so the alcohol was not absorbed.  I was trying to get out of thinking mode - and I was overly successful. 

Two twenty-something sabotage mob guys tried to start fights with me - trying to take advantage of my inebriation.  This is typical anyway now - for these little punks to take their cowardice verbal jabs while Im out.  They wont directly confront any issue - because they know they're just sabotage mob - doing their cowardice thing.

But I did say some things I regret already.  I was trying to joke with the female owner of the bar, but it came out wrong because I couldnt even gather the right tone because I was so sauced.  And I approached a woman (in her 30s) - whose ex-bf I had talked to earlier in the night - and thought it was a good idea to discuss that relationship with her.  Im really not sure what I said - but the conversation didnt end well.  Very badly in fact.  I sang karoake - and could barely stand let alone sing.  Yea one of those.

While sometimes its true that you tell the truth when you're drunk, sometimes its just a muddled soup of words from a sauced brain.  Last night was me at my worst.  Im ashamed of my behavior.

I'd had a bad feeling about drinking last night.  I should have listened to my intuition.