Post 6 today Me - logging out @ 6:25 p.m (Central Standard Time - as always)

The new pastor at the Lutheran church I grew up in (Oran, IA) - made his sermon last night 'Open yourself (to the world)'.  I was not present during the service - so here I am - opening myself up to the world. 

I've battled social anxiety since I was very young.  Social anxiety is not quite the same thing as hiding, not the same as being shy.  It doesn't mean you are weak, but it is a weakness.  Its not really about confidence.  It just means that you struggle to be in the center of things.  Sometimes you are okay with being in public, sometimes not.  Generally, you would rather be behind the scenes than on stage.  I can give speeches to an audience and be more confident and comfortable than most.  But unless I feel compelled to say something, I'd rather be watching from an independent vantage point.

I do not like my picture taken and I never have.  I do not like being on video or recorded in any way.  I feel I have this right to my own privacy as an American citizen carrying the Bill of Rights.  I believe the rights expressed within the Bill of Rights are inherent to all people - as the Bill of Rights itself expresses.  Several religions do not allow pictures of themselves - and I agree with those religions - in maintaining the right to feel this way about being photographed or recorded in private.  I have never agreed to the recording of myself in private - and would rather never be recorded in public.  But that I do not protest.  I only protest unwelcome cameras being in private.  Unbounded surveillance leads to the loss of all of our Bill of Rights.

Alcohol has been a tool in the past - to escape social anxiety and depression.  I rarely drink at home and drink maybe 2-5 times a month when I am single.  Many of the scientists and writers that I have been reading about in the past year dealt with some similar difficulties during their life. 

The sabotage mob has known since shortly after I began researching the central banks, the Fed, and geoengineering in early 2011 - that I have social anxiety.  They knew the illegal surveillance, along with slander and sabotage, would cause a lot of problems - particularly someone who struggled with this issue.  It is central to their using a sabotage mob - to frame me. when travelling billions of light years through the medium of space – which we know contains gravity, gas, dust, and ‘dark energy’.  Its likely these have an aggregate effect on travelling light waves – which Space Interaction theory calls the ‘fog of space’. 

How could we know the effect of billions of light years of travel – on something as small as a photon of light ? We have nothing to detect this tiny an effect over billions of light years.  Our short history of measuring light from distant places – is too small a sample.  Divide a few hundred Earth-years by 12 billion light years.  Not even a visible dot - on a 2D timeline.

Dr. Robert Wagner has observed light waves simultaneously emitted from a distant supernova – which arrive (measured in seconds) apart.  Possible evidence for variable energy released at the photon  – or -the aggregate effect on light waves travelling through billions of light years of space due to gravity, gas, dust, dark energy, and etcetera – the ‘fog of space’.